When I think back how things used to be, and I look at how things are now.. I honestly can't believe it. Nothing has turned out like I pictured it would. Everything is totally different and I would have never pictured myself where i am now. I never really had dreams as a child. I think the only dream I really had was to be with this kid that I liked in 3rd grade. Now I have so many dreams and want to do so many things, I am lost. The things I have been through in the past few years have dramatically changed my life, and changed the way I view life.
I've always wanted to live in the city and be a city girl. But now all I want is to be in the country. Where it's peaceful, private and where I now feel comfortable. I always thought that everything would fall into my hands and I would live a happy, wonderful life. But you only live once. As i now realize that, I also realize that your one life isn't very long. It could end at any given second. Thinking.. that if i were to die now, I would not die happily. I am nowhere's near where I really want to be. Even if that place is in the middle of nowhere, I would want to be in that one person's arms. That's the happiest I've ever been. I used to always want to be rich and be able to buy everything I wanted. But the one thing money can't buy is love. Now I wouldn't care if I was dirt poor and living in a shack, as long as I'd have someone there to love and to love me back. I really am a hopeless romantic. I feel as long as I have love, then everything else will be fine. I know in real life this is far from true. In order to live, you have to work for it.
I think that this is growing up and maturing right here. Love, to be honest, is what makes the world go around. It is honestly what we should seek first and foremost instead of trying to chase after the world. Money is great and all but if we put our everything into making money, I can promise you..you will NEVER be truly happy. I think-it doesnt matter where you are-and how rich you are-if you have love, then thats all that matters. Love with a man..but also.. love with your friends and family.
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